February 20 – I love the taste of coconut

Have you ever had one of those days where you are totally unmotivated to do anything?  Today was one of those days for me.

I was up at 6:00 am, went over to feed my neighbour’s cats and take their garbage out.  (Monday’s is garbage day for us.)  Since it had been snowing I also decided that I would shovel both drive ways and sidewalks, seeing as I am such a good neighbour.  After that I came in, changed back into my pajamas and went straight back to bed.  I woke at 9:30, made breakfast, read emails and downloaded the last episode of the season for Downton Abbey from iTunes, then promptly began to watch it.  I returned emails, had a nap and before I knew it, Nick was home from work.

Where did the time go and what a wasteful day?  Well not completely, my dogs are pretty persistent about getting their walks and if I happen to not walk them, they mope around and make me feel terrible so rather than feel guilty, I showered, got dressed and I headed out with the boys after Nick came home.  It was a beautiful afternoon for a walk.  The sun was shinning and most importantly still out at 4:30 in the afternoon, which meant that I could take them on the long walk without being in total darkness on the way home.  The winter days are waning and while Spring has yet to breathe her warmth upon the ground, calling all those hibernating to wake up, the sun in all her glory is doing her best to give us hope that it won’t be long until all is green and vibrant again.

Photo taken at 5:20 pm as the sun is setting.

I have found a new snack.  When I was little my Dad use to buy coconut, shell and all, and crack it open and cut up the meat.  It was lots of fun to see him open the shell, and such a treat to taste something exotic.  Since then, I have been fortunate to eat it freshly cut from the tree in tropical countries I only dreamed about as a child.  A few months back when I was looking for alternative, healthy snacks, I found this at the Community Health Food store.  It is healthy, delicious, and I find that less than ½  a cup really seems to satisfy my craving for something sweet.  Not only that, the small portion seems to fill me up.  Yippee!  I love the taste of coconut.

 

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February 19 – I love requests that are answered (even if in a symbolic way)

“Come, now a roundel and a fairy song; Then, for the third part of a minute, hence– Some to kill canters in the musk-rose buds, Some war with reremice for their leathren wings, To make my small elves coats, and some keep back The clamorous owl, that nightly hoots and wonders At our quaint spirits.”

William Shakespeare Quotes

 A Midsummer Night’s Dream

This evening I was frustrated about something and so just walked out the front door and sat on the bench on my front porch.  Head in hands looking out at the pine trees silhouetted against a twilight sky, I whispered quietly asking the universe for some guidance.  A couple of seconds later the hoot of a short eared owl echoed in the night air.  A request answered?

Today I listened to the clip of Kevin Costner’s eulogy to Witney Houstan.  Now I’m not a big fan of all the hype given to a woman who tragically lost her life the way she did.  Someone who supposedly had it all.  And while I cannot judge her, I can say I know of people right now laying in a hospice or palliative care centre who have a better sense of what it is to cherish each and every day.

I like to bring up two things about the Houstan incident that made me sit and think about the way our western culture sees things.

I was taken back some when Costner talked about how Houstan didn’t think she was a good enough actress or pretty enough.  This was a woman of great beauty, with a voice like an angel and great talents.  How does that happen?  How does a woman of great beauty, with a voice like an angel and amazing talent think she is not pretty enough or good enough to express those talents?  That just blew me away.

This has to be a red flag for all women exposed to the western propaganda created by large corporations and a media that is only concerned with filling its pockets with cash, rather than promoting women and girls to cherish and value themselves.   Even I admit, at times I look in the mirror and think that I am a hopeless case fighting  to accept my true beauty, physical and inner, without thinking I should measure up to a standard set mostly by males.  I am not male bashing here, I am just stating a fact, and that is, “What must it take for women to accept their beauty without question, without doubt without fear of not fitting in or being accepted?  Who’s generation is going to teach their daughters that it is acceptable to come in different sizes, walk in different ways, express the diversity of our very being?”  We have got to get away from that thought that we are inferior and embrace the many different and amazing elements within each and every one of us, man and woman alike, that contribute to the strength and compassion of our human race!

Secondly, I always find it curious when an incident such as Housan’s death makes such press.  During that same time, the Kayapo tribe received a devastating blow to its people.  Dilma, (the president of Brazil), gave approval to build a huge hydroelectric plant (the third largest in the world). It is the death sentence for all the people living near the river because the dam will flood 400,000 hectares of forest, their livelihood. More than 40,000 Natives will have to find another place to live.   It also means the inevitable destruction of the natural habitat, which includes deforestation and the disappearance of  many species.   What we as a race don’t understand is that this kind of decision has an impact that will not only affect the area mentioned, but touches every human being on the planet.  You and I will feel the effect of such a decision, and I might add, not in a positive way.  Yet what kind of world press did this receive?   You tell me.

I do not dismiss the sadness and sorrow in the loss of any human being.   I know what heartbreak comes from losing a loved one.  But, at some point we must put perspective to what the grand corporations and media deem important, and what truly is important in this world, or we are doomed as a race.

Celebrities are ordinary people, they put on their socks one foot at a time just like you and I.  But we as a culture have allowed the media to make these people out as Gods and in turn cloaked the reality of what’s really happening in our culture and our world.

I urge people to see past these illusions and start making small changes toward a more insightful way of looking at the world.  I’d love to see a day when phrases like  “low self esteem” and “skinny jeans” are no longer used in our vocabulary.  When we stop raping the planet for energy, knowing full well that there are sustainable ways of creating  it, that not only cost much less to implement, but will save us from the eventual death of our planet.

It is possible to shift things?   Just ask an Egyptian.  There is a movement, and I urge you to join it.   It is as subtle as shifting your perspective and seeing beyond the illusions to the truth.

You see the thing about subtle is, it becomes mighty over time.

“When cats run home and light is come, And dew is cold upon the ground, And the far-off stream is dumb, And the whirring sail goes round, And the whirring sail goes round; Alone and warming his five wits, The white owl in the belfry sits.”

Lord Alfred Tennyson 

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February 18 – I love fulfilling days

Yesterday I took a day off from the kitchen and went grocery shopping.  I also stopped in at Home Depot to check out kitchen sinks, faucets, a couple of appliances and to pick up colour swatches.

Today I finished taking down the rest of what was left of the wall paper and got most of the walls washed.  I won’t tell you what acrobats and unsafe practices I used to get that last corner piece down.  I’ll only admit to having some major angels on my side when it comes to safety!

It was a rather gloomy day most of the day and it is only now, in the late of the afternoon that the sun has decided to pop out from behind the clouds.  So I did not mind being indoors.

I have decided to pretty much stick to the sea foam green colour I have in my living room and would like to continue an outdoors theme(colour-wise that is) inside the house.  I have a passion for this colour green it seems so soothing.

I also tried my hand at some gluten-free mini muffins this afternoon.  Half blueberry, half chocolate chip (for Nick).

Tonight I’m going to kick back and dig into some of the books that were delivered this week from Amazon.ca.  I’m especially excited to read the two books I bought about Hawaii.

HE KĒHAU HO’OMA’EMA’E KA ALOHA

Love is like a cleansing dew

Hawaiian Proverbs & Wisdom, From the Little Book of Aloha

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February 16 – I love my neighbours

I have the best neighbours in the world.  They are always there when I need them and it is so easy to reciprocate that same kindness back at them.  I had to go over to get instructions regarding the care of their cats (they have two) this afternoon.  They are going away for about a week and I am the cat’s guardian until they return.

I have been concerned about where I am going to put my furniture when they do the floors in my house.  My neighbour suggested I clear the one side of the garage and they would help me move the furniture into the garage until the renovations are over.  I never thought about that!  Thanks Al!   I love my neighbours!

I worked most of the day taking trinkets down, washing them and packing them away, then washed the cupboards and after that, I did some more stripping of wall paper.   As you can see from the photos I have done as much as my arms could reach.  I am going to have to take that special ladder out from the garage, the one my late husband bought but never had the opportunity to use.  Funny, several of my neighbours have borrowed it though and this afternoon I had to ask Al how to set it up since he was one of those users.

Hopefully the big ladder will help me reach that strip in the top corner!

View from on top of step-ladder.

The beige at the top is paper yet to be stripped.

I am going to take tomorrow off from the kitchen and go to the market.  Saturday I will start clearing the garage.  I have had all this cardboard stored behind the Corvette waiting to go to the recycle bin but never got around to taking it there.  Now I can use it to cover the garage floor so that I can place the furniture on it.  I knew there was a reason to procrastinate about it!  (That’s my story and I’m sticking to it.)

I have to admit, today was very therapeutic.  I often get so lost in my thoughts to the point that my imagination carries me away.  Focusing on a basic task is like being grounded, it’s very similar to meditation.  When I think back on today, a thought came, sat for a few seconds but was released because it was not my focal point, my task was.  It was a great feeling actually.  It was as like an exercise in releasing trivial or unnecessary thoughts.  It made me acutely aware of how simple it is to let go of needless contemplation.  They come, they go, but I do not let them stay long enough to become more important than just a passing notion.

All in all a good day.

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February 15 – I love flowers sent by a dear friend and the thought of a new look for my home

I’d like to share these beautiful roses with you.  They were given to me by my friend Brad.  Brad and I have been friends for almost 45 years now.  While we both went our own ways during our University years,  we did manage to keep in touch.

When I first met Brad, for some reason I thought his name was Doug (or a name similar to that), Brad was so nice and didn’t want to hurt my feelings and so he allowed me to call him that for sometime.  Then I think it became a joke between he and his friends.  When I found out I was totally embarrassed!  Then it became a joke between Doug, I mean Brad and I for many years after that.

Thanks Brad for surprising me on Valentine’s Day with these beautiful flowers.

I spent the better part of the day tearing wall paper off the walls in the kitchen.  The guys that are renovating said I could save some money if I took down the paper on my own.  I know now why I stuck to an office job all these years.  A lot of people say it is cathartic to do labour such as this.  It is true that cursing and swearing, while trying to peel off paper that seems to be stuck to the wall with crazy glue can keep your mind off of your worries, but people, I can think of a million other ways to keep my mind off my inner thoughts.  Hmm, like sticking my head in a bucket full of hot coals!  Seriously folks… no really, SERIOUSLY!  I managed to get the first layer peeled off and will try to do the second layer tomorrow.

This also meant that I had to rid my kitchen of the junk I have been collecting over the past 14 years.  When we first moved into our home, I thought it was cute that I was doing all this nesting.  Collecting little crafts and ornaments here and there to make our little abode nice and cozy.  My late friend Gail’s husband once said our house looked liked a craft store.  Thing is, the remark did not offend me.  Now I look at all this stuff and think what the hell am I going to do with all this junk?  There’s something to be said about living simply is all I can say!

For those of you who live close, please note, I will be holding a very large garage sale early spring!

Some of you may be interested in watching the process of the renovation to my kitchen and living room so I willI post some before shots and update photos.  I will also be writing about the headaches that go along with it.  But for now, I must admit I love the idea of a new look for my home.

Looking from the south east corner of the kitchen.  Eating nook is behind me.  The pantry you see will be torn down leaving the space open to the living room/dinning room area.

Taking down the oak boarder and wallpaper.  This desk area will be torn out and replaced with a pantry.

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February 14th – I LOVE romantic letters, Tiffany’s and Valentine’s Day

I read this the other day(author is unknown)…

Everyone says that LOVE hurts, but that’s not true.

Loneliness hurts.  Rejection hurts.  Losing someone hurts.

Everyone confuses these things with LOVE.

But in reality,

LOVE is the only thing in this world that dissolves all pain and replaces it with compassion, tenderness and joy.

Not too long ago I found a love letter written to me by my late husband and I was reminded of the beauty and joy that love can bring.

There are many types of love, mother or fatherly love, love for your siblings, love of family and friends. I am so honoured to say that I was never lacking in the knowing of such love. I have been most fortunate in my life to have loved and to have recognized love when gifted to me.

I am a child brought up in the age of the Disney fairy tales and romantic movies like ‘An Affair To Remember’.   I believe in, and have known, love at first sight.  From that moment on, I experienced a dream come true in finding my Prince Charming, which lead to a love shared between us as tender and as true as that depicted in the ‘Notebook’.

My relationship with Prince Charming was not always as perfect as the movies.  Often it was about compromise, mixed in with disagreements and even arguments.  Sometimes it felt unfair, and sometimes one of us thought the love they put into the relationship was more than the other’s. But there was always, without a doubt, this steadfast connection and knowing in our hearts, that because our LOVE was so profound, it would always prevail over any obstacle set before us.

LOVE; that deep, tender feeling that only those of us who have experienced it, know the capacity and depth of.

Romantic love surrounds me and inspires me all the time.  My Mom and Dad celebrate their 60th wedding anniversary this year and after all these many years still hold hands when walking.  I have Aunts and Uncles who have been steadfast in their love for each other close to as many years.  My siblings are all married to what they believe to be their soul mates.  All of my friends who are married or have shared a dedicated love between each other have done so now for thirty or more years.

While there is a risk that one may get hurt in a willingness to love  another, allowing the memories of a broken heart to turn to bitterness, anger or deep resentment, that leads one to resist love, is truly a loss.  I understand very well the sadness of a broken heart.  But having experienced true and devoted love, and knowing just how amazing it felt,  I can’t help but welcome a chance to experience love such as that once again.

Valentine’s Day is rather superfluous to those who celebrate their love for one another every day.  Valentine’s day doesn’t need to be a day of bitterness and sarcasm in remembering hurtful memories of the past either.  Nor does one need to feel obligated or pressured to buy something for someone on St. Valentine’s Day.  While it can be a fun and/or beautiful gesture (I’ll take Tiffany’s please), like any occasion, let it be a celebration in honour of what Love represents, and of all its possibilities, as well as, a reminder of what lies within us if we just allow ourselves to open up to love’s joy… Because to be quite honest, I think it doesn’t hurt to be reminded of this every single day!

I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE Valentine’s Day <3.

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February 13 – I love getting organized for an upcoming trip

I am not the most organized person in the world.  I work well under pressure only because I have procrastinated to the last hour, having no choice but to panic in the last seconds.

I have learned over the years that preparing for a trip is not a situation one leaves to the last moments.  Usually I pack my suitcase at least two weeks before my trip, giving myself time to go through my things a least twice or more to eliminate the unnecessary things I would bring if I were to just throw something into a case the night before.

When I am visiting a country such as the United States, often I worry less about things I have forgotten because it is easy to buy what I have missed and the product is usually less expensive.  But when going to exotic countries like India or Africa and even parts of Europe things are far more costly and the likelihood of finding what you need is not as great.  Simple things we take for granted like aspirin are not as easily attainable in a small village in Northern India or in the rain forests of Costa Rica.

I inevitably take way too many clothes, leaving little room for souvenirs or gifts to bring back.  And I always end up leaving things behind.  It’s hard to go to some place tropical from a northern climate without also having to pack for a return that may include landing in a snow storm.  And airplanes are always so cold.

Just thinking about it all makes me nervous!  It use to be easy to get from one destination to the other.  Now it takes at least two hours just to get through the check points from luggage drop off to embarking on the plane.  Which is a whole other story I don’t even want to go into.

A few trips back I was invited to visit my friend on Vancouver Island.  It was 4 days, three nights.  The flight was a little less than two hours and no customs.   I dared myself to do it with just a carry on.  Our only plans were to hang around the house and get caught up on the latest news.

Well, I am proud to say I actually accomplished it.  I used all the mini-containers, coordinated my clothing, and brought the bare minimum. I have to tell you, it was absolutely liberating to walk off that plane straight into the car of my friend without having to stop or look back.  It was especially gratifying after the many trips before, where I often found myself totally exhausted from schlepping around too much luggage through busy international airports.

Of course, each time I go somewhere I do get better with my packing.  Although I must admit this suitcase in the photo (preparation for my trip to Hawaii in two weeks), need some going over.  I mean really, when you go to a place like Hawaii all you truly need is a bathing suit, a cover up and a nice dress for dinner!

 I love organizing my suitcase for a trip, it adds to the excitement and anticipation of the upcoming journey.

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